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MOVED.

i think it's funny how people always want the things that they dont have, but they forget the things that they actually do have.
everyone's life seems to revolve around seeking.
today marks the start of extended studies, well, paying attention wasnt that hard.
except i screwed up bio mock spa.
and i was simply too lazy to do it again.
well, people learn from mistakes.
ahh. i was at bras basah too.
tell me why.
oh right, i still want my mambo jumbo shirt.
and my abrasion is emitting pus.
you gotta love it man.
faith muscles equals when you lift weights you dont feel a thing
its almost like you're carrying feathers.
gotta do the workout.
oh, i am dead sure my printer's screwed up for life.
the worst thing?
it's not even 2 years old.
oh yeah. i like funny people.
funny people ftw.
not funny as in funny in the head, but the kind that
makes you laugh.



oh yeah.
and you can think whatever you want.
and your thoughts shall fly high high up above into the sky.
does love and let go belong together?

cant hold me down, gotta reach for the skies
because there's a passion an inner strength that drives.

"you can't compare mariah carey and lady gaga can you?!"


haha i had fun today.:)
except my abrasion was hurting like alot, and some fluid was coming out. gross.
went with aqilah to get my math textbooks and leotards
but sadly the sonata shop was closed, so we ended up walking around the whole area for three hours i think.
but it was super duper fun, you gotta be there to feel it.
like really artsy fartsy and everything, cause we walked from bugis to wilkies edge to museum to raffles to esplanade to fullerton to victoria theater.
it felt like big walk or sth.
and we took super alot of pictures.
its been a long time since i've taken so many pictures
sota's actual school building is the coolest thing i've ever seen.
and i want my mambo jumbo shirt.:)
dance fest is so cool:D
yup. gonna go for the rock kids pdn thing tomorrow and maybe on thurs too, but there's ballet, and they're gonna work on the pointe item. o.0

and
"we should do this again!" for ten times straight.


i've got this funny feeling in my gut.
its strange to think that some new chapter of my life is gonna start.
and people say that moving on is always good
but everything's too fast paced,
and i dont want life to move so fast
changes are hard to adjust to
and this one's no different.
i dont want to be sec four.
i dont think im that scared of the work.
but it's just the new feeling that you get.
like how you're moving on,
moving higher up a ladder
it's just strange ok. im not ready for that.
i dont want time to move so fast
it's going to be christmas soon, then the new year
and then in a few months the big os
and then what? jc? poly?
i need time to breathe slowly and think about what i want to do
with my life.
it's strange to think that sixteen's not that far off.

i want to upload the pictures but my printer's refusing to.
weekend was fun,  pretty epic, esp since i flung myself into the air.
but it was funfunfun, and i cant wait for the next dg outing.:)
summer and her sharkie and beary and rabie and what not.:)
love them all. but now i've got a big bruise right on my knee and it hurts.
cant even dance properly.
i dont know why but  i think im getting tired of grade 8.
i've relearned the dances at least three times straight.:(
went to ruoxi's house today, watched ballet videos and talked alot:)
super duper envious of the paris le cole ballet students.
they dont look human.
haha, i dont wanna go for extended studies.
my brain is not ready yet.
ughughugh. tomorrow maybe gonna go get sonata leos and buy the friggin emath text.
dance fest is too cool:)
there's like some free style thing going on outside esplanade.





how will i ever stop believing?
you are like a giant net that catches everyone and never lets them go:)
with valleys come mountains and with mountains come valleys
but i'll be forever safe in the fisherman's net.
i know i'll see good. seeing good, and will still see good.

i wonder if it's possible to be vulnerable and strong all at the same time.

wow.
i just realise that there are people out there who are so real.
ah, im so overwhelmed now, but not in the bad way.
i read the psalms 23 that ruoxi sent me, and i felt so super touched by it.
cause its just about everything you will need in life, if you think abt it.
i dont know, guess it doesnt take the cheem cheem bible verses to make someone feel loved.
let hope arise.:)

here's a part of it:

The Lord is my Shepherd = That's Relationship!
I shall not want = That's Supply!
He maketh me to lie down in green pastures = That's Rest!
He leadeth me beside the still waters = That's Refreshment!
He restoreth my soul = That's Healing!
He leadeth me in the paths of righteousness = That's Guidance!
For His name sake = That's Purpose!
Yea, though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death = That's Testing!
I will fear no evil = That's Protection!
For Thou art with me = That's Faithfulness!
Thy rod and Thy staff they comfort me = That's Discipline!
Thou preparest a table before me in the presence of mine enemies = That's Hope!
Thou annointest my head with oil = That's Consecration!
My cup runneth over = That's Abundance!
Surely goodness and mercy shall follow me all the days of my life = That's Blessing !
And I will dwell in the house of the Lord = That's Security!
Forever = That's Eternity!

Face it, the Lord is crazy about you.
What is most valuable,
is not what we have in our lives, but
WHO we have in our lives!

Even though you can't see Him, GOD is there for you

When Jesus died on the cross, he was thinking of you!

:)
i may not know what my future holds,
but i know who holds my future.
He promises that its gonna be good:)


feeling overwhelmed now.
but its a good sort of overwhelmed.
thank you jesus for everything.
for your grace that always always sees me through.
for real friends.
for people who genuinely care.:)
for love.
for purposes.
for gifts.
:)



-you are not the bimbo i thought you were.
-i miss you.
-unstoppable drive.
-surrounds me like a shield.
-you're the honey to my star.
-you tell me you're proud of me.
-that made me smile.
-you take that first brave step i never thought you would.
-you're the drive that keeps me going.
-and i will make it, i know i will.
-i like how this is going.
-with mountains come valleys, and with valleys come mountains
-mustard seeds.
-rudolf nureyev ftw.
-we can do this.:D
-we will do this.
-why do i care anymore?:DD i. am. freed. :D


 

okay results have been pretty screwed up so far.
haha, even my el paper 1 also, apparently i wrote a very contradictory essay.
shall not dwell on it though.
although i am friggin scared for history paper tomorrow.
it's the first thing in the morning yknow.
today was pretty epic.
mosquitoes, white musk, noise pollution, weird people who randomly answer your rhetorical questions
and disturbing nonsensical lil kids.
haha omg so fun.
but i openly declare that i hate hate hate mosquitoes with every single fibrous.
and no im not looking forward to extended and mtp and revision,
which unfortunately will still happen no matter how much i resist.
i must learn to like it man.
ah, i've got the butterflies thinking about history.
gahhhhhhhh.
k thx bai. dg outing on sat! somewhere fun i hopeeeeee.
i think i forgot how to study.

weird.
my father just told me that he thinks im losing my focus.
i was like, what focus?
i think im pretty focused anyway.
except for the sleep part.
idk why i keep sleeping and sleeping.
omg, i want to stop sleeping.
like sleep normally and not have screwed up sleeping hours.
results back today.
and for the next three days.
i failed chem, but it's ok.
actually when they were going through, it didnt seem that hard.
haha but under exam conditions i think its very different.
anyway tried my best alr, so no regrets.
yeah i realise how unsciency i am.
haha but i think history's the scariest paper.
i roughly know how im gna do for everything,
but i have no idea about history cause many times when you think you're right, you're actually wrong.
eeeeeeeeeeekkkkkkk.
let us love life.
extended studies and science spa and cheena paper and whatever shitzxzxz FTW.



just for fun, camwhoring yesterday during cca.:)cca makes me a little pissy, but shall not dwell on it.





my leg looks friggin short.

my favourite dancers ever.:)
tofu dances and GORGUD.
haha, love them tons.




heard this song for the first time at viv's church and i fell in love with it!

"ballet is the most sophisticated because it is the least natural, but looks good only when it looks natural."




wow feels like a long time since i've blogged!
haha sheesh i was late for dance today.
i set two alarm clocks but i still pressed the snooze button.
hopefully this wont happen tomorrow or else i'll have to do detention already i think.
so weird, i was never late for so many times in sec one and two.
ah anyway, dance was ok.
oh i wanna watch 500 days of summer!
especially since everyone keeps raving about it.
getting back results tomorrow.
chem and ss. jesus help.:)
ballet tomorrow.:) and for the rest of the week as well.
haha love life mans!
today's a happy happy day:)
jesus you're so very very good to me:)
and i know this is so very very slow.
but i realise something!
to do all things for the glory of God!
meaning not to do things for your own glory, to gain attention
but all for Jesus!
and it's good in the sense that there's no longer a pressure on yourself
to be good
cause you're doing it all for Jesus so even if you don't do it well
there's no condemnation.
and if God wants the glory, then He has to do all the work.
He has to work through you for you to give the best results for His Glory.:)
awesome!
no longer i but christ in me.:DDDD
haha gosh i feel like im on cloud 9.
anyway i feel like not blogging anymore.
haha see first see first.










And when the stars are shining brightly in the velvet sky,
I'll make a wish send it to heaven then make you want to cry..
The tears of joy for all the pleasure and the certainty.
That we're surrounded by the comfort and protection of..
The highest powers.

hello.
it's been awhile since i've posted.
or should i say it feels like awhile.
i had a weird dream yesterday about bugs and cambodia and hot air balloons.
and i got so into the dream i woke up at twelve!
post exams werent so bad afterall.:)
had fun at marina barrage. saw malcolm there!
no dare today cause it's deepavali.
so i went to viv's church without viv! haha met jianmin and she brought me.
it's a good experience i guess, especially since it's been years since i've been to another church.
ah, the atmosphere's different but in a good way!:)
had a good service.
sat with a whole row of TK girls.:D
have to go back to school on tues for dance.
hmmmm. i just made something for the dancers! hope they'll like it.:)
i hope we can have dg outing on monday.
we need to go cycling together! havent done that for so long.


have been thinking pretty alot about stuff.
sometimes anger blinds you.
then you go do the stupidest things in the world.
it's so easy to allow yourself to be angry.
so many things you could be angry about.
sometimes i feel so betrayed when things dont go my way.
ugh, the way which i think is right.
and then i go and blame God.
that's why i think it's so impt to keep going to church and being in God's presence.
cause anger is blinding.
it veils God, and going to church unveils jesus and all of His loveliness and you stop being angry!
stop feeling like shit.
haha, it's so refreshing.
that is, if you go, and you just allow jesus to come in.
and not be cynical or whatever.
ah, im so glad.
jesus makes me glad.
jesus is hope that keeps you going.
sometimes i get tired of whats going on.
it's funny, the human mind.
when things are going stray, ppl are moaning and complaining.
that's what people do. and when things are fine, people start getting bored with their life.
i always forget.
it's too easy to forget about how good God is.
and too easy to be disillusioned.
cause we only see the small picture, worms eye view.
but God sees the big picture. birds eye view!
so God knows whats best for me.
there's nothing i can do also.
if God wants it that way, He's gonna have it His way.
so why bother trying anyway.
i want to drive the devil nuts.
so fun.
ok jesus pls remind me everyday about how good God is cause i know the devil
likes to make me forget.
so please give me a post it everyday to tell me how good God is.
love ya loads.
you are my BFF always.
we dont need to care about the world.:)